Random Thoughts

I was thinking just a bit ago, while driving my kid to school, about where I have felt that feeling before. The one in the meditation and in the dream both. The one where there is much info under the surface, you don't and even can't know it consciously, but you have to trust that your subconscious can handle it, and you have to hold your conscious intent in such a way as to make that happen.

It's an odd contradiction of sorts. You can't look at it directly consciously; none of it is clear enough, and focusing on any one thing would make it impossible, it would mess it up. Kind of like how when you're doing something fast and complicated, physically, sometimes you have to NOT focus-in or you will screw it up; you have to let that semi-autonomous part of your brain, the one that manages the amazing physics of catching a ball when juggling 5 of them, to operate. In a way you are UN-focusing on any-single-thing consciously, while holding the intent that the lower-level of your brain is going to be able to catch any number of unknown things SUBconsciously, and at the same time you have to hold this sort of "optimistic, positive expectation and belief that it could be ok, this could work."

I think this relates to probabilities and creating reality. So often we don't really know WHAT it is we are trying to accomplish; if we did, we would be trying to force only a single outcome which is vastly less probable; what we really NEED, is the ability of the part of ourself that CAN manage all that confusing mess of probabilities, to reach down in there, sift out the ones that are decently probable and good and one way or another (no matter how indirectly or surprisingly) will bring about the desired end result.

But with the conscious mind, if we are focused on any specific thing, that is what our intention follows. So we can't focus on any one thing during this. But we do have to focus on the base intent (the positive expectation and how the lower-level is sorting probabilities) in order to "force" the process to occur.

So it really IS like those magic-eye pictures:
1 - You deliberately are staring at it (paying attention), but
2 - You are creating a blur-point and not focusing on it, and
3 - You accept that your brain is going to work out the hidden pattern, then
4 - The pattern starts becoming conscious, and you give it time to flesh out, then
5 - You can finally shift your single-focus to the newly-exposed pattern, and actually SEE the 'hidden picture' which now, to your focus at least is "fully manifested".

Hmmmnnn.

I'm reminded of one of my favorite lines from one of my favorite movies, "The Zero Effect" by Jake Kasdan (starring Bill Pullman, who I really like):

Now, a few words on looking for things. When you go looking for something specific, your chances of finding it are very bad. Because of all the things in the world, you're only looking for one of them. When you go looking for anything at all, your chances of finding it are very good. Because of all the things in the world, you're sure to find some of them.

-- Daryl Zero

PJ