Programming the Self

I had forgotten about this meditation approach: Create a 'geometry' which 'is' a given energy. This is like that geometric language you feel inside you, that some say is called the Angelic language, where the geometric shapes 'are' the 'ISness', the thing itself being communicated. Then you are plugging it in" to the programming control center of yourself.

I remembered the last part, but not the first about making it a geometry that feels right, and I think this is very important and more powerful somehow. Also I had forgotten the part about 'conflict resolution', I think that is important too.

Also I had forgotten that there is a specific "DNA Meditation" that one can do there. Sheesh! Anything else I'm forgetting?? Oh yeah: I had also forgotten that my outer guides (OG) used to work with me so often and often came with me to the body-worlds and did a ton of energy work with me like on my chakras.

The guides in the various science-lab centers 'inside/under' the plateau, as a group, that deal with my body, are the overlapping guide-identities that I now call "Tek".


Journal fragment, July 16, 2002

I was doing a Control Center med, some OGs in there with me too. It totally rocked!

I came up with a single, succinct and direct sentence for what I wanted ("I am very disciplined and have much will"). Then, I had my imagination come up with a geometric shape that "said" exactly that, that encapsulated it perfectly in its own form, that "was" that energy. I put the shape in gold light.

Then I gave the gold-light-geometry to the CC guide that works in the comcenter that sends out information, ideas, instructions, etc. to every cell in the body. He added a note to it, like a "carrier wave" of energy somehow attached to the shape, that said, "Any not in accord with this belief, present yourselves for conflict resolution."

He had this glass cubic box in a center console and he stood over it and held the 'shape' ready and everyone in the room, like all the guides were participating and sharing energy, yelled "GO!" loudly in chorus and he slammed it into the console to be sent out on every nerve, the message delivered to every cell.

It was amazing!! I could physically feel as if light were hitting my every cell! My entire body tingled with it.

Then it was like a party atmosphere in there and I had him "gimme 5!" and told him I'd be back another time.


Journal Fragment, July 24, 2002

Control Center med. I was using binaural before/during this btw, TMI focus 12. I asked if the controller could help me make a 'thing' out of my intent, to "plug into me" somehow. He said yes. I started listing a variety of things (evolution stuff) and then I realized, it's my choice, right, so I added "fun!" to the mix, and then gave it all to him. He began working on a shape/symbol/whatever. I had a feeling it would take him several seconds to do right, so I distracted myself to let go of it fully.

Then I suddenly thought, hey, if I can change at the cell level, can I also change my DNA?! I asked him and he said "Yep!" so I focused on that and he re-began the build using that model. Suddenly I thought: the four elementals of soul, the four parts of DNA, and I asked are these related? And he said "yes, somewhat."

Now, when the guide is setting me up with something, a number of other aspects I perceive dimly just as 'people watching' sometimes come, just a few. But this time, HORDES came! Huge crowds!! Our CC changed into a big windowed elevated booth with stadium seats around so everyone could see in.

I said My gosh, why the big deal??

He said, "changing DNA has profound effects."

I thought about that. "I'm changing my past as well as future right?" I asked. Yes.

I worried a little. "Will this affect my daughter?" Yes.

"Will she still be here happy and healthy and all?" I asked, concerned.

Sure, he says, as if to reassure me, and I relax.

Often when a CtrlCtr med symbol/order is plugged in, it's instantly so intense an energy it actually makes me kinda nauseated. (Powerful magickal rituals do this too, as an aside.)

This didn't. I did feel it physically, as I always do, but not so extremely. It felt... weird, like a subtle pulse, and it passed. Then it came again and I got the 'concept' of it and a visual to go with the feeling:

There is some technology, maybe Tesla stuff, where there is something with two vertical pillars of metal, and there is this live-lightning that is arcing from one to the other in a horizontal beam, and it is moving upward. I think it normally goes upward but in my case this was going downward, slowly.

This thing happened several times repeatedly, I felt it going down through my body. I made a point on my own to help it: to add emotional impetus, will, and visualized a super powerful yet soft expanding 3D ball of yellow energy affecting my own timeline and then everything -- like probabilities and alternate realities -- near me.

Finally it was over, and I was very mellow as I'd been in binaural F12 for awhile then, and I picked up my book and continued peacefully reading for a few minutes.

Then out of nowhere, VOOM!--despite that I'd been very calm, comfy, relaxed, I was instantly totally beta alert, totally energetic and I jumped up instantly, almost violently, put on leggings and ran out and mowed the lawn, which was way overdue and a good bunch of work. I had the clear sense that I HAD to go exercise and MOVE a little, that this was needed for the energy to process, or set, or be completed.

My thought is that I should do more DNA related stuff.

Oh, I asked the controller if he remembered the night in Seattle when I changed my entire past radically up to then. He said he did. I was thinking that this must have been for some reason--I hope a good one...


Journal Fragment, November 7, 2004

Control Center meditation. Sponsored by an idea in a Seth book. "Look for opposing beliefs that are causing the most severe energy blockage."

I hear, "blood ___" (curse? cult?). I see a piece of square metal with a piece of metal on top sticking up. I feel rushes of fear run through me, and I spontaneously call the directions--first time inspired to do that in eons.

On the clean-room table are two humanish babies, yet different, more flexible/skinny like small animals, yet looked human.

On the right the baby was crouched down on its haunches, but it seemed to have teeth and claws and a fierceness. In some shock I recoiled, wide-eyed inside.

On the left was its twin, lying in a fetal position as if "unconscious." I decided the one on the right could wait; the one on the left needed immediate attention. I focused on it in concern. It seemed the innocent to me. Surely the "on-guard" angry one was responsible for it lying there so passively.

But as I focused on it, this ghost-like energy-body or over-self came out of it, and I could see it was big, mean and hostile. It seemed to be protecting that which slept or ignored. I realized that this might actually be the real cause of why the other looked hyper-alert and ready for violence and a little crazed. If this oversized energy-body bully had been attacking the other...

My attention shifted. I kept trying to go back to the med but was in serious denial and eons later I finally just slept. I might add my Ctrl Ctr meds have always had unusual textured shapes. They have never had anything alive, let alone something so unusual! Babies. Do you suppose the symbology means it's something from that age?

11/9/04 continued (better late than never!): I invited the OG's and they came. We went back to the Control Ctr and the weird babyish creatures.

I focused on the right one. I so felt for it. I said, you poor baby, poor, sweet baby! And stroked it. When it relaxed, I held it and coo'd to it. Finally I removed the core of the belief and association with me, yet left it all its form and energy, but told it I was going to set it free. It changed into a little dog like a beagle or something.

Then I focused on the left one. Eventually I decided this was an unconscious belief, that was the meaning of the infant's state. I told it to take a form I could work with and it became a hive of stinging flying bugs. I figured it was trying to protect itself. I made a plexiglass 2-cube box connected by a tube and one by one I had them sucked from one side of the box to the other, and in the 'tube' area removed their core belief/connection from each. When done they were just the energy and form, no connection to me.

I told the dog to become a bird, and I set them all free.

I actually felt mildly as if the sides of my torso had gotten lighter or clearer, like inside I was freer somehow. I was going to do another CC med but the CC guide told me I should do that a separate time.

Oh yeah, outer guides:

We went back up to the plateau. The OG's though the CC med was 'weird but cool'. The guides had agreed to help with my chakra med. One of them I see clearly, he's an asian guy. We'd done the crown chakra earlier. They helped pour energy in a "core" through me and expand, pushing all darkness out, and they buried it deep in earth.

The next round (planned) was my left foot. There was a distortion I had perceived in the energy field shape, and an improper opening where negative energy could come in. They literally revised the shape, which closed off the open area, and they had to use part of their own energy to force a mold to hold the new proper shape in place until my astral body does it automatically.

I feel I can still "feel" this in place, semi-physically.


Journal Fragment, January 7, 2006

In my sacred space a sort of dimensional doorway opened up like a big crack in the plateau, in the middle. Wow. Me and my nearest OG jumped in, and slid down this literal slide for quite awhile, and turn and twist etc. Kinda fun. We end up way deep 'inside the earth'.

We arrived at this double doorway, opened it up, and we were in this really big building -- as big as a vast opera house or small sports arena -- and the ceiling was totally dome and totally stained glass. The light was *incredible*!!! There was a 360' balcony filled with people there to watch.

It was a DNA-level meditation I was told, but I don't remember much else now, I did at the time, but I didn't write it down later.

The room itself was so amazing I kept going, "wow. wow. wow. wow." I mean visually... wow.


PJ